Monday, June 9, 2008

A "Lilly" is more beautiful than any rose...

I am so grateful to Josh for learning how to become the ultimate blogger! He has posted everything since Lilly embraced us with her presence. I guess I am finally feeling up to the whole blogging thing, only wishing I was less emotional than I was a week ago, but alas, I'm not. I haven't even started writing yet and am bawling like a baby. We have the prettiest roses in our yard, so we decided at the beginning of one of our walks to take pictures of this little girl next to the prettiest thing we could see, and of course, they just don't look quite as beautiful next to this little girl. I'm afraid this post could be rather long, which as you know, I don't really write much. I wish I could express in words what has happened to me since she came, any one of you who has had a baby knows exactly what I am talking about, and for all of you dear sweet ones in my life who haven't yet, just know that the time will come when the Lord will bless your life with something that is most precious to Him. It's hard for me to describe in words the feelings that come to me as I realize that she came straight from Him. In no other way could something like this be created by any other power. It is a testimony to me that He indeed lives and loves His children. I never realized I could love someone so much. Its such a different love than the love you feel for your spouse, which are both so wonderful. I am so grateful that she is healthy and strong. I feel so blessed to have her be in our family and feel so inadequate as I think about how I am going to raise her. I'm just not good enough!!!! I'm sitting here looking at her right now sleeping away in the "pillow throne" Daddy made for her and truly understand that my Lilly is more beautiful than any rose. I'm so glad she is mine and that I get to keep her forever come what may! I just want to thank everyone who has posted comments about her and us, and for those who tried but couldn't :). Josh pulls up the blog and reads them to me daily and as he is reading them just crys and I cry with him. We have so many wonderful friends and family who care so much and it is times like these where we realize how much we are loved. The sweet emotion (or hormones) that comes at these sensitive hours humbles me with gratitude and appreciation. We love you all and thank you from the bottom of our hearts!

9 comments:

tracey said...

Welcome back :-) That reminds me so much about how I felt my first mothers day, which was when I brought Samantha home from the hospital. I remember telling my mom "I finally get it" and I had never been so thankful for MY mom. Enjoy!

Chelsey said...

How right you are! Nothing can compare to a brand new baby. Lilly is so lucky to have come to this earth to such great parents. After I had Ashlynn, I was watching the news and it was something about some child being abused, I was crying so hard. God trusts us to take care of these sweet and inoccent little things, I could not believe that someone would be able to hurt something that was so small and as you said, just sent from God. So I warn you, don't watch the news for awhile. It's awful. Nat, it won't matter how you too raise her. It will, but it won't. Because of the two of you, she will know her Heavenly Father, she will know that by the power of prayer, she will still be able to comunicate on some level with Him, she will grow up with the love you will give her and that will be enough for along while. Something that we started with Ashlynn and then with hailey: when we would put them down,as babies, I would cradle them in my arms and say a prayer for them, just loud enough for them to hear, then put them down. I knew, even from such a small stage, I needed to instill a knowledge that prayers really are heard and answered, according to Gods will. Now it's the girls that remind us that we need to say our prayers. And now that they are old enough to listen, somewhat, we have started reading the Book of Mormon to them. It is amazing to me how much they understand and pick up. Sorry Nat, I'm going on and on, but as you, my kids are so close to my heart. Anyway, those are the two things I would suggest doing from an early age. They have been a blessing to us all. I love you guys. I am so happy for the two of you. You never know how much joy children can bring into your lives until you have your own and I am so happy that the two of you are getting to experience it together. You are both wonderful people and will be wonderful parents. When can we come see you? Let us know. We want to see your little Lilly in person. She is just so precious. And I NEED to smell that new baby smell! It's my favorite!!

Josh & Sumo said...

I can't wait to experience what you are going through! I'm so happy that things are going well for you and your sweet family.

Lots of loves...

The Pead's said...

Oh Nat, we have both come a long way! You have turned into an amazing woman and I am so proud of you that you are a little Mommy now! It IS amazing. I still can't get over the unconditional, never ending love that I have for Griff. I cannot wait to experience pregnancy and childbirth again, hopefully soon! I am so glad that you two are enjoying her so much. I can't wait to meet little Lilly!

Laura said...

She is beautiful you guys, nice job! Brayden can't wait to meet his new girlfriend! Congrats!

The Kings

Sherri said...

Sorry to take so long to comment! I had to learn how. ;-)

I'm so happy for you and for Lilly. She is beautiful. She is blessed to have such loving and grateful parents. I'm also happy for your parents, because that new baby joy is doubled for them!

I don't know who Chelsey is, but I loved her comments!!!

I'm very glad for our family ties, and hope they will continue to strengthen.

Love,
Sherri (cousin)

Grandma K said...

Sweet Lilly girl, you are so precious...as are all my grandchildren. You are my first grandchild. We will have so much fun together.....be good to your mommy and daddy, okay. They really love you and want to help make your turn on earth a fabulous experience. You will find it easy to be good to your mommy and daddy because you will feel their love and caring......constantly. When Grandma comes she will cuddle you and rock you and take pictures of you, okay? When you get older I will tickle you and make you laugh, and I will push you on the swing and we will sings songs and I will tell you silly stories about your mommy and daddy. Love, Grandma K

Marissa said...

Whoever said love at first sight doesn't exist is not a parent. I honestly doubted whether I could love a second child as much as my first. When little Anders was born, though, I just fell head over heels in love with him! Natalie, I'm so happy for you and your husband. As parents, it's amazing to look at your child and know that your love created that life. It's such a miracle, to create life..... Definitely a testimony-building experience. Love and miss you!

Grandma Mills said...

I'm so glad that I got to spend the first week-and-a-half of Lilly's life with her and you two, my kids. I know that my mom, Lilly, is smiling down upon this happy occasion. I miss you three, but especially Lilly...